Good morning Dr. Valeria Braghieri, I am writing to tell me a little, to report an emotional state that has been suffering from me for some time, it is the “regret”. I would like to ask you for an opinion, if it can help. My name is Ascanio F., 77 years old, I live in Lombardy, I worked for a whole life as a concept employee, dealing with accounts and machinery. I think and I think back to the lost time. I think back to certain youth experiences that I have not had the courage to live. Here is one, to make me understand (with imagination names). As a boy, during the school holidays, I was a guest in the villa of a friend, in the area of Lake Luino, in the province of Varese. During the day you walked or went on the boat or worked to take the flowers with the small sister of my classmate (how nice the yellow junter!); In the evening he was at home with his mom. Mrs. Ines, on whom I fantasized often because of her attractiveness, a late afternoon waited for me to the shower, there was the storm. I had a feeling of cold. I found her particularly kind, she took her back with sweetness, I let her do it, her hand … I remember the shot I did, the escape to the room, the search for my friend (Rip), always remained in the dark about everything. The day after her embarrassed, glacial, distant, to say the least. How many times have I thought about it, even in a stupid, goliardic way. What bad would have been if I had accepted that “affection”, in my time it was said between boys, “the school ship” … Too bad, I did not have the courage to live and today, that I have a certain age, I regret it, reviewing my life, ordinary.
Ascanio F.
Dear Ascanio, the “school ship” in question would have been the mother of her best friend, therefore not a “neutral” figure with whom she is practicing to become sexually adults. If the regret did not deal with so much space of the human soul, literature, cinematography and the song would not be full of it. So there is to understand his nostalgia for the time gone and the unborn opportunities. But I would not nod this among the situations that should have completed differently. I think it went well like that.
With her fleeing from that shower and the lady who, the next day, felt caught by a well -deserved discomfort for trying to seduce her son’s friend. Look for other romantic niches to hang on what has not been.